Freeeeeee Fallin'

Today was magical. I don't know why, but my expectations were way lower than they should have been... And the Lord once again... BLEW MY MIND! Today I went and handed out clothing to some homeless people. Since Wednesday, I have been fighting off fevers, coughing up lungs (it feels like I have more than 2 lungs that I can cough up!), trying to catch boogers from running out of my nose (sorry if that is tmi), and just overall being in kind of a funk! This morning when I woke up I thought, "oh no, I'm gonna have to let people know that we can't go hand out clothes today." and then I felt the Holy Spirit speaking to me, "Why not? I've prepared this day for you. You've asked me to prepare hearts and that's exactly what I've done, trust that it will turn out the way it's supposed to. Snap out of it child! This is my work that is waiting to be done... Go and tend to the seeds of love. You can do it." Ummm... Okay! Thanks Holy Spirit! How's that for a morning pep-talk?! Lol I immediately felt a burst of energy when I decided that I was gonna go through with it, no matter how I felt! As time went by and the hours got closer and closer to 1pm, I felt a cloud of doubt come over me... I started thinking, "What if I can't find anybody? What if the location I thought God was showing me, is supposed to be somewhere else? Will I have enough to give everyone?" I was STRESSING OUT! I tried to have quiet time with Jesus, but I just couldn't seem to focus! Until... BAM! 1pm! Dun. Dunn. Dunnnn! It was time to go. No turning back now (or could I just pretend that I completely forgot), I had to go through with it. We arrived in downtown Pomona (I was feeling clammy, could we go home now?!) My mother and I were parked waiting for my grandparents and cousin to join us... Tick-tock... They were taking FOREVER!!! I had to pray, I asked God to forgive me for the way I had been acting towards this... I should have really just been thankful that He assigned that to me! That He trusts me! Then I felt the Holy Spirit asking me to trust in Him! I felt myself repeating, "I trust You. I trust You. I trust You..." until I felt this beautiful peace and confidence about the situation. I felt relieved and realized that I had just COMPLETELY given the ENTIRE situation to Him to handle. At that point I felt what Lou Engle calls, "Free Fall Moment" the moment where you've taken that leap of faith and have absolutely no idea what is coming next, but you're believing for Poppa to catch you! Yup. FREE FALL! But sure enough, He is faithful and He showed up! We got to pray for two women and hand out clothes to about 10 people! The one person that stuck out to me was Debbie. She has a heart of gold! She knows the Lord and trusts that He looks out for her. WOW! This woman that lives on the streets... TRUSTS GOD. Its that simple, Trust in Him, Know that He IS God! No matter what situation! Tomorrow I'm hoping to speak more about what happened today... I'm sorry to leave you hanging off a cliff, but this servant of God is EXHAUSTED! goodnight :)