Well last night I was cleaning my room... I saw one of my favorite pens and got the urge to start writing. Immediately I knew... I felt it in my spirit to write to Poppa :). My thoughts and emotions started flowing... I just wanted to thank Him and express to Him all of the love that I felt. It was almost as if my heart was really gonna burst from so much joy and love!
I have a tiny journal.
Well its not tiny... but, I like to write big... so to me... it's tiny. Anyway! As I was writing... I could hardly contain my speediness! lol I was trying so hard to stay in between the lines and still freely express myself on paper. It wasn't working... either I wrote neatly and sacrificed some of that raw emotion... or it got really raw and the writing was out of place. hahaha That's when I felt the Lord speak to me in the softest, purest, most tender way.
I don't want you to stay inside of the lines.I want you to FREELY be yourself.
Freedom from the thoughts of others & be unapologetic about it.
Freedom from their perceptions.
Be whole in Me & do not be phased by anything else.
Oh boy! God is great. Amen?! Amen. The freedom that I felt after this! This funk is gone. My "ugh." is replaced with "woooo" We have a Father that turns mourning into dancing, y'all. I will never cease to be amazed at how much Abba loves His children.
I started to reminisce (as I tend to do every year on my birthday ;D) and I can't help but to be humbled in COMPLETE REVERENCE. I have been taken out of so much junk, removed from toxic relationships, and protected so much by God. Even when it's hard for me to identify what it is that is going wrong inside of me... He knows... and if we listen closely enough, we can hear Him speaking to our spirit.
O Lord, You have searched me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down, And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue, But behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there; if I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning, And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me, And Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, surely the darkness shall fall on me, Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness and the light are both alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts; You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You, When I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You.
Psalm 139:1-18 NKJV
Your Heavenly Father knows every single aspect about your life... the good, the bad, the ugly, and all of the potential that you carry inside of you. I pray that you are able to accept this freedom of being YOU that God has blessed us with.
LORD, I pray that the person reading this right now can receive the freedom to him/her self. Break the chains of other people's thoughts, opinions, or perceptions of them. I pray that they are able to see themselves as You see them, not as the people that surround them do. In Jesus' name, amen.
I love you all soooo much! God bless and have an incredible day... every day ;D
-Alyssa